You Always Know When: Printing and CD DVD Duplication
Well I’ve been better! Not too bad but it’s a bumpy ride
Sorry I haven’t been in touch things have been a bit of a challenge for me also recently and you know I don’t want to sound like I’m too downcast, but I really thought I’d finally gotten on top of everything, that’s why I didn’t want to send bad news. I wanted to be talking about how everything was going great and I’d be able to come over and visit!
It’s really time for me to move on from K rd where I’ve been but I don’t want to make any more bad decisions on this! I’m trying to maintain my current staffing level but the margins have really been trimmed. I’m really trying to hold onto the faith that keeping the staff on will be the right move and it’s better for me to fight and hold the position rather than cutting back on staff jobs and withdrawing back to where I was, doing more myself.
I guess if I look for positives they’re not that hard to find. I’m not really having to work as hard as I have been, my health is much improved, no more asthma or that involuntary heart racing I was getting, and my back is fine other than being slack beause i dont have a proper workspace.
The mobile internet I got has been awesome, but its quite expensive. Often I’ll be on the move, have a lead come in in the morning, confirm the order, forward that to my staff or a supplier, then pick up and drop off in the afternoon without even having to go back to base, not being tied to the desk always calling me back is pretty cool.
I do get quite anxious about turnover being a bit slow when there’s staff on top of rent that I gotta pay for but just not really as angry and frustrated as I was feeling trapped in 10-12 hour daily slogs. There’s still niggly clients, people not paying, but it’s easier to deal with now. I’m almost caught up on my tax and all my fines over the years, so slowly there are some big boogeymen being dispatched. It’s just that bloody crash in coromandel from 98 thats stuffing up my credit still and making it hard to make moves.
But yeah, just quite anxious most days about the margins and having to manage a lot of “situations” that occur with staff and clients, a lot of my focus and energy is dissipated, I’m starting to think I really need to get serious about a new idea, retail or something I can really get my teeth into. Especially retail because I’ve got seb there sitting on his thumbs and I know that he’s great in a trust role as long as it’s not too intensive which is perfect for retail.
My top priority is getting into a new place but it weighs on me how important it is to make the right decision, back myself perhaps in a pricier place because at least i have some faith now that with sustained clarity and focus I can tackle these challenges. I can say a lot about marianne and seb but sheesh at least they left me the hell alone to do my work and do my thing!
Everyone else seems to want to have their beak in it and bring me down, when I’m trying to maintain that essential clarity and focus. It’s hard to feel like things are grinding down month after month.
I guess there’ll always be more challenges, thats what I lost sight of. I was just doing so well there for awhile, i thought I was finally “home and safe” but, hey. Subconsciously I knew that outside I was vulnerable, and I only now do I realise the fight I’ve got on my hands to have a place where I can work and put my business first and that’s not upsetting anybody.
It’s good to hear you’re enjoying your work. I guess those guys have a lot more challenges to face than I do, but that’s just another reason to try and give the best I’ve got. And I am slowly learning to take action over wallowing, I guess it’s as you were saying about the use of the brain with your guys, the more I use my will to conquer feelings of defeat, the better I’m getting at it.
I guess you’ll know when it’s time to make the decision to come home. I’ve been lucky enough to have your love and support behind me over the years so it’s great you’re able to make a difference where you are right now.
Y’know I can’t help but think of all those board games and how learning to have the power in your mind to have an idea and make it happen was such an important gift.
